What It’s Like Being Indecisive

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Since I was a child, I have struggled with being indecisive. It can be over something as simple as what movie I feel like watching to something as big as what kind of wedding I wanted to have (I understand that for many, this doesn’t seem like a ‘big’ decision, but it was for me).

If you have ever tried to make dinner plans with me, you’ll know how frustrating it can be trying to decide a time and place. Presented with too many options, my mind shuts down and I physically cannot tell you what I want to do because I don’t know.

Over the years, I have discovered a few reasons which I think can explain why I have such a hard time making a decision. One is the fact that I’m a people pleaser. I love to make people happy and I can’t stand the thought of annoying people or making them not like me, though I am very aware that this happens and happens more frequently than I would like. Because of this, when a decision involves other people, I am scared of making the wrong one, one they won’t be happy with.

Another reason is I second guess myself all the time. This makes me worried that I will make the wrong choice which I will later regret. I guess you could call it FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out) but I’d like to point out that even though I use slang and acronyms ironically most of the time, I have never actually used this term.

I can be paralysed by the fear of making the wrong choice. It actually causes me great anxiety. Because of this, I found wedding planning at times unbearable. I’m not sure I would have called myself a bridezilla, but I was an incredibly stressed bride. We had a beautiful wedding day but I don’t miss wedding planning at all. In fact, whenever anyone talks about wedding planning, that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach returns. It will be many years before I can look back and laugh.

My indecisiveness affected me recently when I wanted to change my hair. I knew I wanted a change but could not for the life of me decide what I wanted to get done.

For weeks on end I was going in to work and complaining to my coworkers that I was bored with my hair. After going through multiple different options with them, one of them was getting so frustrated by my indecisiveness she was close to driving me to the hairdresser and chaining me to the chair until there was a change.

I ended up going with what most would consider a fairly subtle change. Why? Because I didn’t want too big of a change for fear of not liking my choice. How ridiculous is that?

My indecisive nature also means that when I have decided on an option or a course of action, that’s it. There is very little room for movement. If plans change, and change drastically, I don’t deal very well. Even with things as simple as finally deciding that I want a particular thing to eat for dinner, once I’ve got that in my head, it’s rare that I will be satisfied with another decision. It’s why I will often order the same thing from certain restaurants because I know I will be happy with what I get. I also like it when restaurants have online menus, especially if I haven’t been there before, so I have ample time to decide what I would like. Lucky DG, right?

What it all seems to boil down to for me is that my indecisiveness is inextricably linked to my anxiety. Any decision has the ability to cause me great anxiety and as such, making decisions is something I find incredibly difficult.

How do you make a decision? Is there a process? Are you indecisive? Have you found that anxiety makes it hard for you to make decisions?

 

    • 26 Years & Counting

      I can be pretty indecisive at times, but for me I think it’s usually just when I’m feeling nervous about something unrelated. I just remind myself it’s not the end of the world and make a decision, even if the decision is to do nothing. Practice makes perfect. I hope.

      • Monique Fischle

        I’m a bit the same, if I’m nervous about anything, decisions are harder to make. There are always times when it’s far easier for me to make a decision. Being with DG has helped me become better at making decisions.

    • https://kikiandtea.com/ Tamsin Howse

      I am so indecisive at home it’s ridiculous! I have been known to start 3-4 movies in a night and finish none of them. There are only 4 options for take out near my house, but I can never decide.

      At work, however, I’m pretty good at making snap decisions. It’s funny how that goes, isn’t it?

      • Monique Fischle

        Decision making at work is totally different for me than personal decision making. It’s funny the way that happens. I rarely start a movie and not finish it, but making the decision of which movie to watch can take a while.

    • http://johnanthonyjames.com/ John James

      I think you might be right about a link between anxiety and indecisiveness… at the moment, I’m in a really good place – happy and contented and confident – and I have no problems making decisions at all…

      Last year when I was struggling with the black dog, there were definitely lots of occasions where I struggled with decisions…

      I think the thing to try and remember is that 9 times out of 10, it doesn’t really make much difference what decision you take, because you’re probably choosing between equally good (or bad, as the case may be) options…

      If you have choose between two things you like, just choose one and go for it – you’re going to enjoy it — don’t worry about the one you miss out on…

      Equally, if you have to choose between two bad outcomes, again just choose one and eat that frog… the frog you choose to eat is going to taste just as bad as the frog you choose not to eat – so you might as well get it over and done with as quickly as possible… :)

      • Monique Fischle

        The annoying thing is that logically I know making these decisions aren’t that big of a deal, I KNOW that but sometimes I can struggle. Other times I’m very decisive. I’m just a mixed bag, lots of fun for DG haha

        • http://johnanthonyjames.com/ John James

          :)

          Yep – totally understand…

          But the more you practice, the better you get…

          Make it habit, make it happen!

          • Monique Fischle

            That’s the plan :)

    • Shannon

      Great read. Are you a libra by any chance? I am and it’s one of libras biggest characteristics. I’m hugely indecisive. Mostly with little things like what to have for dinner, which flavour chips to choose, which shoes to wear with an outfit, or like you where to go for dinner. Big decisions, like a car purchase I’m fine with and know what I want. I think it’s also because I’m a people pleaser too. Although it causes many arguments with my hubby.. Not people pleasing at all :)

      • Monique Fischle

        I’m a Virgo (but my due date was supposed to be Libra)! Decisions like cars and where I want to live, I know what I want. When DG and I were looking for rentals, I didn’t sit on the fence, I either wanted to apply for a place or I didn’t, no second guessing.

      • https://kikiandtea.com/ Tamsin Howse

        Hear you on indecisiveness causing more arguments than it pleases! Apparently I’m a real pain in the bum 😉

    • http://www.kidmagazine.com.au Sara | Kid Magazine

      I’m pretty good at making decisions – a little too fast sometimes! I sometimes can’t be bothered though on things like what to cook for dinner.

      • https://kikiandtea.com/ Tamsin Howse

        Ugh! Dinner! The bane of my existence

      • Monique Fischle

        Deciding what to do for dinner can be the actual worst!

    • theworkher

      I find my gut instinct is what’s normally right – that first initial reaction. But I guess the trick is trying to pinpoint then listen to that reaction!

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